I’m a hoarder.
Just the type that keeps pamphlets, maps, tickets, or any other memorabilia to arrange in a nice scrapbook – but never did; the type who takes fancy sets of toiletries from various hotels around the world – but never really use; the type that holds on to emotions to deal with later – but life gets in the way and so these feelings build up and then starts fizzing like the carbon dioxide in an unopened soda can vigorously shaken, and then BOOM! I’m reduced to a hot mess with traces of debris dating back to 1999 and I don’t even know what hit me.
In the words of Jay-Z, ‘that shit cray.’
Since I find tidying therapeutic, I decided to start the battle against clutter by first #Kondo-ing my flat using the “KonMarie method” from ‘The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up’. Her premise is simple: it’s not about throwing items you want to get rid of, but keeping only items that spark joy or are truly important.
A wardrobe and a half later, I’ve realized her tidying goes beyond the material things. It demands you to find clarity and introspect:
- How do you want to live?
- Who are the people that bring you joy?
- What is preventing you from living that life?
For me it was a combination of laziness, guilt and fear. Procrastinating things for a better day on a better mood, feeling guilty for putting myself first, scared of facing the truth and making bad decisions… I am constantly in my own way.
Whilst Kondo’s method teaches you to declutter systematically and habitually; she also imparts that tidying in actuality, is an expedition that starts with believing in yourself.